On Christmas Day Ivy would have turned 5 months old. 25 has turned out to be a sad number for me. All things 25 should have been joyous when I think about it. •The 25th of July should have been one of the best days of my life – it was the worst, second only […]
Today marks 12 weeks since Ivy was born. It still feels like yesterday when I was taking Theo to the park after having a smear, hoping to get things moving along! I can’t believe how quickly time seems to have passed. I think it helps now that little man is at nursery – we’ve fallen […]
This time last year infant loss awareness week wasn’t on my radar, and October 15th was just an ordinary day. But this year is different. 2014 will always be remembered as the year I lost a child.. Tonight I am remembering my daughter, Ivy Florence. I miss her everyday.
My gorgeous baby girl!! This will likely be the first and last picture of Ivy that I share with you – the others feel too personal. This is one of my favourites as she isn’t covered in tubes and wires, and she’s wrapped in her brother’s blanket. It’s a special moment that I shared alone […]
Dropping off little man at nursery for the afternoon and there’s a cute baby in a pram at the entrance (mum must have been dropping off her little one upstairs).. I could hear the cleaner talking about the style of pram – and I couldn’t help but coo over this gorgeous little boy who grasped […]
But not because Im finding it difficult to cope. I’m not – I’m doing surprisingly well for the most part. But as life is moving on, and I’m beginning to make plans about returning to the workforce, its difficult letting go. Letting go of the detailed plans I had made; my life plan. Most people […]
This saying was mentioned in a tv documentary I was watching earlier tonight, and it made me think about how I talk about my daughter. I love her name, and have done since I chose it for her. I’ll never know if she would have grown into her name (although I’m sure she would have!), […]